I’m trying to order Christmas presents for my Grandparents. What do old people like?
hiddenmortality: Oh god yes, I'd love to cuddle you c:
Yay! Cuddle buddy!
Who wants to cuddle?
Posted on 12/6/13 @ 3:30 PM • 4 Notes ♥
Anonymous: Youre really beautiful. I can't believe anyone would treat you so bad.
Abusers go after people they think they can control. I’m still learning about why this stuff happens.
I feel like I need to explain myself, why I’m sometimes a bitch, like to complain and have been questioning my faith in God.
I overcame some “eating issues” I’ve been dealing with for several years. It was one of the hardest things I’ve ever done and I’m extremely proud of myself for coming through it. My agency on the other hand has not been so supportive even though I am a size 0/2 and still technically underweight so that has added a lot of stress on top of just getting used to how my healthy body looks and feels.
The abuse. I’ve talked about it a little before and I’m not interested in getting into it too much. I don’t think going though something like that makes someone weak or that it’s something to be embarrassed of though. I’ve just been drained of so much from it all that I don’t want to continue to go over the details. I want to move on. I still get nightmares and I still feel very unsafe.
About a year ago I was diagnosed with a chronic pain disorder and have been on pain medication for it since May. With the medication I can get by mostly comfortably day to day, but it’s basically just like putting a bandaid on the issue and continues to get worse. I recently found a specialist about an hour away and hopefully they will be able to see me before the new year and figure out how to solve the problem (without surgery) because my doctor hasn’t given me much hope.
Besides that there’s some residual stuff from years past, more work stuff, and PMDD which turns me into a mess for two or three days every month.
I’m going to shut up now that I’ve explained myself.
Posted on 12/5/13 @ 9:20 PM • 0 Notes ♥
I can only bring myself to be nice like 40% of the time
Posted on 12/5/13 @ 12:47 AM • 1 Notes ♥ // Tagged as bitch badbitch whatever i dont care i dont like you
I used to be really lady like, but now I just don’t give a fuck
Posted on 11/26/13 @ 11:45 PM • 1 Notes ♥ // Tagged as dont care
I can’t sleep. Whenever I try I just have nightmares.
I hear him screaming all of those sick things to me all over again.
"you were probably molested by your family"
"I hope you die"
"You don’t deserve to live"
"I hope you choke on pills"
"You’re a horrible person"
"I hope you get raped"
"Fucking ugly bitch"
"You stupid fucking slut"
"Cunt, bitch, whore…"
Posted on 11/23/13 @ 4:31 AM • 3 Notes ♥ // Tagged as abuse nightmares
I wish someone had warned me before I ever got involved with a psycho, lying, abusive, pedophile, sex offender.
28 years old, lives with his mother, can’t keep a job, never graduated school, always broke, has been in treatment for psychiatric problems, and fucks girls in high school. DO NOT BLAME ME FOR YOUR HORRIBLE DECISIONS AND SHITTY LIFE. You’re not a nice guy with some bad luck like you pretend, you bring it all on yourself you crazy piece of shit.
Posted on 11/22/13 @ 11:29 AM • 0 Notes ♥ // Tagged as psychopath liar sex offender
Jesus Christ why am I getting calls from my ex again…
If he wants to just argue or blame me for random shit I’m not interested. If he’s calling for any other reason I’m still not interested.